Hotaru no Saiden

I remember staring into space, feeling like something was missing. How long had it been since I blogged? I had vowed to keep up everyday with my goings on... But unfortunately the threat of college finals held me down. It was then I realized that this goal would not be possible. The original intention of this blog was to get out the rampant, strenuous feelings I was having after Jay’s departure from my life. I had so much thickening inside my mind... I had to remove it in some form. Drawing wasn’t helping me, as it had before. Music made things more sour. Taking walks were only temporary escapes. So this blog was created. I had actually intended on turning this into a more peaceful and creative atmosphere. A sort of Zen-for-your-thoughts rest stop. None of this dark, stormy weather. But this, among other things, Helped me gain freedom of spirit again. Now that I’ve been set loose, I realize I will not have to tend to this log like a fragile garden anymore. But I still feel dedicated (if not slightly obligated) To continue posting as life progresses. I will probably spend some time beating… er begging Ryan to help me start up some lovely templates for my blogs and such. Spring has certainly transformed the world. A phoenix of life spreading her wings. As I snap from my mindless staring… I think about what it is that I’m missing. But all that I’ve lacked or lost, Has been fulfilled and regained through time. I can recall all the things that have slipped from me… But then I remember what was placed in my hands instead. Then I wonder if losing what I had, was such a bad thing in the end.

- Posted by Kitsu, 11:29 PM

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archives	Monday, April 28, 2003 I remember staring into space, feeling like something was missing. How long had it been since I blogged? I had vowed to keep up everyday with my goings on... But unfortunately the threat of college finals held me down. It was then I realized that this goal would not be possible. The original intention of this blog was to get out the rampant, strenuous feelings I was having after Jay’s departure from my life. I had so much thickening inside my mind... I had to remove it in some form. Drawing wasn’t helping me, as it had before. Music made things more sour. Taking walks were only temporary escapes. So this blog was created. I had actually intended on turning this into a more peaceful and creative atmosphere. A sort of Zen-for-your-thoughts rest stop. None of this dark, stormy weather. But this, among other things, Helped me gain freedom of spirit again. Now that I’ve been set loose, I realize I will not have to tend to this log like a fragile garden anymore. But I still feel dedicated (if not slightly obligated) To continue posting as life progresses. I will probably spend some time beating… er begging Ryan to help me start up some lovely templates for my blogs and such. Spring has certainly transformed the world. A phoenix of life spreading her wings. As I snap from my mindless staring… I think about what it is that I’m missing. But all that I’ve lacked or lost, Has been fulfilled and regained through time. I can recall all the things that have slipped from me… But then I remember what was placed in my hands instead. Then I wonder if losing what I had, was such a bad thing in the end. - Posted by Kitsu, 11:29 PM	ColonPipe Hyper Buddha Gorgissum Haiku Knock on the >>Sky Ebbles Miniatures