Hotaru no Saiden

Once there was a great war. And I was part of it. There were many people in my life then. Two of the most prominent people of that time in my life, Were not only willing to help… But also able. It came to a point I had to leave these people in order to selfishly save myself. I had suffered for almost a year in turmoil and stress. The sheer fact that I could not be near any person willing to touch me, drove me mad. I was hurting these people and I had to stop. I wanted to make it better. I was not alone in my suffering, And if anything I shouldn’t even talk about how I suffered. These other people fell because I did. They were hurt just as much. I was causing it, I could see that. For all anyone knows I ran to save my life in the most horrifically selfish manner possible. For I am a fool. For I too, am one of those ungrateful assholes. To this day these two people, justifiably, resent me bitterly. They resent that I came out through hell alive. They resent I am the one who got to live again, And they had to die. I was offered life. I forgave. I learned. Listen to the tide slowly turning I can bend in my own rhythm of life now. I have my own life now. Wash all our heartaches away Life brings me here. This is where I am. This is where I stay. With Ryan. We’re part of a fire that is burning Despite the rigid turmoil of the now, It will not last forever. Though difficult, It is possible to gain strength in change. From the ashes we can build another day. It is the way of the phoenix.

- Posted by Kitsu, 12:45 PM

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archives	Saturday, July 12, 2003 `Staring into his eyes, I have little to say. This speaks for itself. He can’t see me I know he could from memory. I just… Want to be everything. A cherished gift unselfish feeling... I need… Some time. True time. To be able to touch. …Skin is smooth… To smell. To see. …I steal a glance… Hand is empty. Hand is warm. My arms are waiting. Pick a flower, Hold your breath And drift away... - Posted by Kitsu, 12:17 AM` Sunday, July 06, 2003 Once there was a great war. And I was part of it. There were many people in my life then. Two of the most prominent people of that time in my life, Were not only willing to help… But also able. It came to a point I had to leave these people in order to selfishly save myself. I had suffered for almost a year in turmoil and stress. The sheer fact that I could not be near any person willing to touch me, drove me mad. I was hurting these people and I had to stop. I wanted to make it better. I was not alone in my suffering, And if anything I shouldn’t even talk about how I suffered. These other people fell because I did. They were hurt just as much. I was causing it, I could see that. For all anyone knows I ran to save my life in the most horrifically selfish manner possible. For I am a fool. For I too, am one of those ungrateful assholes. To this day these two people, justifiably, resent me bitterly. They resent that I came out through hell alive. They resent I am the one who got to live again, And they had to die. I was offered life. I forgave. I learned. Listen to the tide slowly turning I can bend in my own rhythm of life now. I have my own life now. Wash all our heartaches away Life brings me here. This is where I am. This is where I stay. With Ryan. We’re part of a fire that is burning Despite the rigid turmoil of the now, It will not last forever. Though difficult, It is possible to gain strength in change. From the ashes we can build another day. It is the way of the phoenix. - Posted by Kitsu, 12:45 PM	ColonPipe Hyper Buddha Gorgissum Haiku Knock on the >>Sky Ebbles Miniatures