Hotaru no Saiden

Last night we left the city. Thousands of lights for hundreds of miles. As far as eyes could gaze and further. Farewell to Las Vegas. Ryan was lying in my lap. I wasn’t tired. Yet. But I watched the moon become swallowed by intense, greedy clouds. Then kept my eyes still until it was spit out through the other side. I had escaped this place with a twist of inner wisdom. Bitterness fading out and away. What a tiring sensation. Stare at the moon. And I began to reflect. White and green. Humid. Lights. So many small lights. And candles. The ceremony over and the new couple walked away. And so did Ryan. And so did the rest of the participants. Yet… I felt something hit my foot as they passed. When it was safe to move I bent over and picked it up. It was one of the cheap metal rings that had been tied to the pillow. I felt my own ring finger and my heart lowered slightly as I remembered. I had taken his ring off. The promise it spoke was no longer there to comfort me. But this ring… The wedding. Perhaps not all was lost. As I had thought when I first realized his ring was not with me. I kept this new one with me. It seemed all too long watching Ryan eat dinner across the room in this place. And it was difficult. One night or not. But as all things do, It ended. He was back with me again. And I was… Elated. For the first time I have someone to be with. So I can dance. So we can. So we did. The young girl who had enlightened me previously, Who had gotten me to smile... Had us kiss again, Before marking our foreheads in the same way with her finger. It was the last I saw of her. But somehow the connection feels stronger... Far more refreshed. In my arms, In the car, Leaving the city… Despite the now growing urge to sleep, I was feeling stronger. We arrived home at 4:30 AM. Happy to be here at last. I located the ring and returned it to its place on my finger… Curled next to him… Yes, Happy to be here… At last… Zutto.

- Posted by Kitsu, 5:58 PM

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archives	Friday, September 05, 2003 Last night we left the city. Thousands of lights for hundreds of miles. As far as eyes could gaze and further. Farewell to Las Vegas. Ryan was lying in my lap. I wasn’t tired. Yet. But I watched the moon become swallowed by intense, greedy clouds. Then kept my eyes still until it was spit out through the other side. I had escaped this place with a twist of inner wisdom. Bitterness fading out and away. What a tiring sensation. Stare at the moon. And I began to reflect. White and green. Humid. Lights. So many small lights. And candles. The ceremony over and the new couple walked away. And so did Ryan. And so did the rest of the participants. Yet… I felt something hit my foot as they passed. When it was safe to move I bent over and picked it up. It was one of the cheap metal rings that had been tied to the pillow. I felt my own ring finger and my heart lowered slightly as I remembered. I had taken his ring off. The promise it spoke was no longer there to comfort me. But this ring… The wedding. Perhaps not all was lost. As I had thought when I first realized his ring was not with me. I kept this new one with me. It seemed all too long watching Ryan eat dinner across the room in this place. And it was difficult. One night or not. But as all things do, It ended. He was back with me again. And I was… Elated. For the first time I have someone to be with. So I can dance. So we can. So we did. The young girl who had enlightened me previously, Who had gotten me to smile... Had us kiss again, Before marking our foreheads in the same way with her finger. It was the last I saw of her. But somehow the connection feels stronger... Far more refreshed. In my arms, In the car, Leaving the city… Despite the now growing urge to sleep, I was feeling stronger. We arrived home at 4:30 AM. Happy to be here at last. I located the ring and returned it to its place on my finger… Curled next to him… Yes, Happy to be here… At last… Zutto. - Posted by Kitsu, 5:58 PM	ColonPipe Hyper Buddha Gorgissum Haiku Knock on the >>Sky Ebbles Miniatures