Hotaru no Saiden

I said it once and it’s rather true, But my job is so bad it makes me forget there is anything worth living for. The environment. The repetition. The hours. The customers. The employees. The management. My life away from work dries up far from the reaches of water. I forget who I am, who I used to be and who I care for. It’s sucked many hours of my life. It’s what pays the rent and gives me food and electricity. It too, is bittersweet. Feeling so miserable lately. My diet has been poor and there is little to no food in my home for the next few weeks. My debt is growing larger. I got incredibly ill for two days, Nearly bed ridden on the first day and recuperating the second. All my sick days apparently spoken for and this has put me into a sizeable debt. I have had to use Christmas money to keep me partially afloat, I feel incredibly guilty for spending the money this way. What odd events have passed since many celebrated a New Year. Everyone has grown angry and irritated with each other. Life has become insufferable at some points. I’m tired, and insomnia has soaked up my sleep life. The lunar New Year approaches. When rooster and dog trade. Things are far from when we had planned them. Fire dog year. I was born in the year of the water dog, though through some interpretation I have more wood in me than water. Wood and water do not survive well with fire abound, even if it may be a dog’s year. Though I feel a slight aching in my body that something must be brewing. Tonight of all nights the culmination of everything came to its dramatic end. When I had reached a limit of stupidity and tears and blubbering, Mimei had decided that enough was enough. At first she tried calling to me, talking in some feline language that I can only vaguely interpret. When this, and her frantic pawings and nudges, had failed.. she did what she felt she had to do. She bit me. Now, don’t worry, there was no blood at all and my exclamation of “ow” was mostly in shock and disbelief. It felt like she had a claw prodding me but when I looked down she did indeed had a part of my hand gently clasped in her mouth. Quite gently. Her upper tooth was touching my skin enough to give a sensation to avert my attention from being in a mood she couldn’t withstand watching. She looked up at me, And when satisfied this had gotten my attention away from whatever was bothering me… She sat back down. I'll never understand her fully, She has been a mystery unfolding since kittenhood. She saved me from a scorpion, and keeps me from dangers and sadness when she can. She is more intelligent than most cats I will probably ever know. I can’t help but feel some slight familiar connection with her when we are close. It will take more than her care and encouragement to make things well again I know. I just pray there is some hope for us all.

- Posted by Kitsu, 4:25 AM

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archives	Thursday, January 05, 2006 I said it once and it’s rather true, But my job is so bad it makes me forget there is anything worth living for. The environment. The repetition. The hours. The customers. The employees. The management. My life away from work dries up far from the reaches of water. I forget who I am, who I used to be and who I care for. It’s sucked many hours of my life. It’s what pays the rent and gives me food and electricity. It too, is bittersweet. Feeling so miserable lately. My diet has been poor and there is little to no food in my home for the next few weeks. My debt is growing larger. I got incredibly ill for two days, Nearly bed ridden on the first day and recuperating the second. All my sick days apparently spoken for and this has put me into a sizeable debt. I have had to use Christmas money to keep me partially afloat, I feel incredibly guilty for spending the money this way. What odd events have passed since many celebrated a New Year. Everyone has grown angry and irritated with each other. Life has become insufferable at some points. I’m tired, and insomnia has soaked up my sleep life. The lunar New Year approaches. When rooster and dog trade. Things are far from when we had planned them. Fire dog year. I was born in the year of the water dog, though through some interpretation I have more wood in me than water. Wood and water do not survive well with fire abound, even if it may be a dog’s year. Though I feel a slight aching in my body that something must be brewing. Tonight of all nights the culmination of everything came to its dramatic end. When I had reached a limit of stupidity and tears and blubbering, Mimei had decided that enough was enough. At first she tried calling to me, talking in some feline language that I can only vaguely interpret. When this, and her frantic pawings and nudges, had failed.. she did what she felt she had to do. She bit me. Now, don’t worry, there was no blood at all and my exclamation of “ow” was mostly in shock and disbelief. It felt like she had a claw prodding me but when I looked down she did indeed had a part of my hand gently clasped in her mouth. Quite gently. Her upper tooth was touching my skin enough to give a sensation to avert my attention from being in a mood she couldn’t withstand watching. She looked up at me, And when satisfied this had gotten my attention away from whatever was bothering me… She sat back down. I'll never understand her fully, She has been a mystery unfolding since kittenhood. She saved me from a scorpion, and keeps me from dangers and sadness when she can. She is more intelligent than most cats I will probably ever know. I can’t help but feel some slight familiar connection with her when we are close. It will take more than her care and encouragement to make things well again I know. I just pray there is some hope for us all. - Posted by Kitsu, 4:25 AM	ColonPipe Hyper Buddha Gorgissum Haiku Knock on the >>Sky Ebbles Miniatures